well, screw you mister thesis adviser.

I recently got this comment from my teacher on one part of my thesis' data analysis:

 

Make an introduction to this part by explaining, on a theoretical and literature-based manner, why looking at how the household and neighborhood is portrayed would reflect the representation of poverty in film texts.

 

 Well. Even if you're a social science, does it really take you a dozen books on theories of poverty to know that the freaking household is the perfect representation of the characters' lifestyle and socio-economic status, given that it shows what they own and the very dynamics of their daily life? And that portraying the neighborhood is a great way of providing a background of where the character is in the larger scale of things?* If the social sciences vehemently require a dozen citations from other people who just happened to write and publish something before you did just to be able to state the obvious, I am in the wrong discipline. Yes, I'd rather be an art major in this school, even if their students are awful and mostly posers who use art mainly to support their commercial artsiness.

Meanwhile, here is a drawing of me that Sean made. It's weird how sometimes I wish I can draw like he does when just a year ago he was frustrated with his underdeveloped art skills. But I guess he deserves this for actually pursuing what he wants, unlike me, the sell-out. It sucks how I still need him to remind me to do what I want rather than settle for something I'd have to work on and not use in the future, which is what I am doing now. If Aristophanes were right about how we look for 'the other half', he'd be it because somehow he is what I wish I were more like, including his ability to grow a beard.

*i know i will see this more clearly in a very social science way in the future, after this nightmare. but now i freaking hate having to do all this work.

c:

You know, I have a heart of peppermint.

I am now opening my own copy of the book for the 8th year in my little life. I kind of was in the brink of falling out of love for Mr. Dickens last year when I was reflecting on Catherine's dilemmas as his wife. But this year I finally found a copy of Hunted Down, plus they made this movie. Now I can't even be critical about anything, because he's reduced me again to the little girl(?) I once was who easily bought these little bits of warm feelings and shiz.

the best time to wish you're a mermaid

I would write more but right now I'm saving my energy and brain cells for my thesis-writing, a nightmare still not going away, just there, a background to my un-blogging. I can write a million things more sophisticated and interesting than this paper but the academe is sucking at allowing me to exercise my amazing talent. I think this is why people are getting lazier and sticking to tweets.

in an alternat-ive universe

１１月２４日

I promise I'll be working on my thesis in a while, but it's just so hard in this day and age when capitalists provide you with all kinds of nonsense escapist stuff, like The Sims. 

my own nakahara house

If you don't know The Wallflower anime series or manga, well, it's that amazing anime and manga which I decided to bring to sim life. This is not the old Nakahara house where Sunako and the guys lived, it's Sunako and Kyouhei's house which I made from scratch. Apparently they're now living together.

(disclaimer: I don't own The Wallflower, and they're not yet living alone together in the manga. Except for Chapter 71.)

 

the kitchen (L) and the dining area (R)

Of course, this was taken in an old save where kyouhei is still only in level 6 of his chosen career. Ignore that and rest assured that in the next save, he reached his lifetime goal.

chiaki's bedroom

Yeah, apparently they have a kid now who I named Chiaki. I know, it's weird that they even got married in the first place. And their girl child is in a sort of girly room (it's not; it just looks that way from afar). It's getting out of character but hey, ever read fan fictions?

chiaki's playhouse

They're really rich because a) The Nakahara family is rich and b) motherlode gets you what you want in the Sims except if what you want is a realistic lifestyle. Yes, Chiaki has her own playhouse which you can see from outside in the first picture. It is useful for having Noi's and Kikunoe's children over for the weekends or study dates.

In this dark time of not being able to do fun stuff anymore because of school (and the kind of class you're not even interested in anymore!), The Sims is a HUGE deal. I cling to this escapist shiz because even if I know that I shouldn't in order to get this whole school deal over with, well... I just couldn't. Here's a life I can at least control and speed through. Even if it's a big fat lie E.A. is feeding me, I at least need this illusion of power more than the crap my thesis adviser gives me when he tries to 'tame' my ideas into 'edible' scientific data that my panelists can digest.

To tame the /wrist aura, in other news, another chapter of Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge is up! Should I be sad that it's the happiest news of the day?

on school

１１月２３日

You know that usual little chatter  whenever you come across people who've graduated, and they ask you how you are and you complain about how many months of pain you still have on you before you graduate? People I know who've graduated always tell me that I will miss school when I'm working, and that it's so much tougher 'out there'. But I learned a thing from some weeks as an intern, participant-observation and much research about this 'real world', and it's that they don't make you read this much crap and quiz you on it. Which I despise. I do love reading, but school has made it so unlikable for me. 50 pages is NOTHING in Lemony Snicket pages but I can't even bring myself to begin reading this one I have on political science. 

I would love to read Foucault and all the other cool people in the academe. But I don't have any use for my evil teacher's fifteen-minutes of multiple choice + essay terror, except maybe that it arouses my sentiments for saving the environment from how much paper we use in school for useless crap. School does have a way of watering down your fairy dust, and crediting you for buying their nonsense. And what's worse is that it has me writing this anti-institutionalization entry but it still makes me want to get an A for this quiz.

snapple

１１月２０日

hoho. c:

http://www.xkcd.com